therebutreinedyheadrestingoriedtotakendoffthepresentbyrecalliifulsesandpleasantexperiehepast.butit.theuglyrealityoorealandoverp.</p>
uardsethesaquestion.ilistenedfortheirfootsteps.sobedtotheieofpressure.sooftheingeredforantafteraskingtheirquestion;othersdidnotyansostiediately.</p>
apartfroheguards,thereusthavebeenthesoleoctofthatbuildingonthatday.ifthereoanlongago.</p>
ididnotkno,ieisolation,tiassudadifferentaningorhadnoaningatall.ionlykneylegsfeltstiffandheadaovingaslongastheguardsntioe.ylegs.araybayhaveryhot.itriedtogetsoreliefbyvingshouldersupanddown.</p>
afterstandingforayheadonknees,irested.perhapsihadsnaturingprayers.theniyneoveaslittleaspossible,butipelledselftodothesileexerentsduringthenightyselfgettingtense.breathingbeyselffroettingintoapaniuchaspossibleinthatnfinedspadiagain.</p>
thebestetosnapoutoffearethingpositive.eventhesileaovingbodyarounddefeelbetteriediately.ifihadjustsattherefeeliouseit.</p>
thenightdraggedonveryslooreifeltthatientboxdeepunderground.handsbeysolepreoe,ghtientlypaign,hepliptlybysuaopoints,thereisufferedrethanportant.ifhandsrippled,hoouldibe</p>
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